Well today was crap.
It’s just one of those annoying, horrid, foul things I suppose that just happens. And when I come to think about it, we don’t really have that many ‘issues’ or bad days with the Dirty Boxers Universe – especially with the amount of days that strangely dance in to months. But that’s such a pansy thing to say. And this is a rant. So let me please continue…
What really annoys me about shitty things like what happened today is that it is out of the hands of the Dirty Boxers Family. It’s the frustration of not being in control, or if we have lost control through out own stupidity, at least we have the opportunity some how to bring it back on track.
It’s probably my own foolishness that is not allowing me to ‘let go’ about what happened. When the power finally disappeared the air was blue for a while, I can tell you. But as the day turned in to evening, I am still harbouring some ‘anger’ towards the loss of discussion that we had created up to that point. (Especially as I was told I was right on several occasions on subjects covered in yesterday’s show, and now there is no recording of that).
But I suppose what I have learned about today is that I have a strange affection for the old DB show. It’s always been, for so long. It’s my day and night. All I seem to do is work, rest and play Dirty Boxers (thanks Mars Bar). I am unsure if other creators have the same kind of relationship with their creations. Is JK Rowling returning to the Harry Potter world cause of the money? Perhaps it’s because her young adult book failed? Or maybe, is it because she can’t leave Hogwarts? Or maybe I am a freak who can’t leave.
This is some of the reason why I need to pull back the shows to 3 times a week from January 2014. It’s not because I want to, a part of me kind of knows I need to. Today was the first time it has been proved to me. I have so many ideas, concepts and desires that I want to achieve before I am chucked 6 feet under – and the schedule of DB (which I completely acknowledge is my own doing), needs to be pruned a little to fit everything in.
This doesn’t mean you as a Family member of DB will be short-changed or left high-and-dry. As you have started to see over the past few days we are moving towards producing a lot more video – which was always my first love. But that doesn’t mean that video is now my only love. I have become so appreciative of the tender and personal media of radio over the past few years, that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to let it go. So until the other one finds out, I’ll be cheating on them both for you.